I am having my baby this morning, and I cannot sleep.
A week and a half ago when I was told that I was dilated four centimeters and John was still required to spend much of his day laying down with his foot up, I felt rather overwhelmed. I asked John for a blessing. In the blessing, I was told that I would know when to go to the hospital to have the baby. A few days later, I knew. I knew that I needed to send five of my kids to their grandma's in Provo, and ask to be induced on Friday the 27th.
Why Friday the 27th? Well, Rachel and Adam started school on Wednesday the 25th; John had his post- op appointment on Thursday the 26th. With all of those big-ish events that I needed to take care of out of the way, it would be time to have the baby. I also knew that I needed to ask to be induced because I needed to get help with my children.
Ruth and Kate have done so very much for our family since John has broken his leg. There is always so much to be done in a family this size. Dishes, laundry, and food preparation take me twice as long now as they did when I had just four children, and there is always more things that need to be picked up and put away. A really big family like mine is just naturally more work. Ruth, Kate, Johnny, and Adam have pitched in and done many extra chores everyday. They are tired. It has been a long month.
Last Friday, John came to a couple of stores with our family. When we got home, he was exhuasted. I felt like he had hardly done a thing. I looked around at our messy living room and my over worked older children and I knew things would not go well with me spending 24 hours in a hospital right now. Plans had to change.
I thought things over a while and decided to ask John's mom to take Kate, Johnny, Anya, Joseph, and Joshua while I had the baby. I wanted Ruth to stay here with Adam and Rachel and to be in charge of getting them to school. My mother in law readily agreed.
When Wednesday came around and I was still pregnant and still dilated 4 cm, my doctor asked what he could do for me (It is nice having a doctor with 7 children.). I told him I wanted to be induced and on what day. He was happy to go along with my plan.
Last night, I drove my children up to their Grandma's. I felt really bad leaving them. I have never left my little children over night before. We have always managed to use as little child care as possible while I had all of the previous babies. I also felt really bad that most of my children will not be able to greet their new little sister the day she is born. But, I know leaving them is the best thing for our family right now. John cannot take care of all of the kids and the house. And Ruth and Kate have taken care of enough. Sometimes, I just need to ask for help and take it.
That is where we are at. Kate, Johnny, and the three youngest are an hour away at their Grandma's. I will need to leave for the hospital in an hour and a half, and Ruth will walk Adam and Rachel to school in 2 hours.
I am excited to meet my new little daughter and grateful for the Priesthood and the Gift of the Holy Ghost that help me make the best decisions for my family.